Dear Sovereign God,
I write to you humbly first to express my immense thankfulness for the magnificence of your Glory. Your Glory which I can barely stand in the presence of or dear to make full eye’s glance with. But I can only surrender meekly in the presence of it and marvel at its splendor from the crack between my fingers held in the fore of my face. I kneel before your throne and I thank you that you have given me the gift of your presence breathed into me that I would have full ability to walk unveiled before your throne of grace and have you forever with this wretch called ‘me’. I long for the day where I will be in your Holy Courts forever for eternity (I delight in your returning for us my Redeemer). May the account of my life (especially this new life) show your glory and result in you saying well done to me on that day I meet you face to face.
I look around me now and I see a world raked with destruction and terror! I see unrest in countries I know very little of, apart from the plethora of coverage of refugees, wars, Terrorism I can’t seem to chance a guess; the reason it prevails, or its original cause. The fall of man with it’s after effects?!! Was it the greed of man in establishing boundaries and territories that did not rightfully belong to them? Has the tower of babel confusion ever really ceased? Was it the rape of a people’s dignity and pride as a rightful member of society that caused persistent racial and other tensions and the contention of man even now?
Why would a human being rape another at any age? Oh what perversions have invading the minds to varying degrees all of society so much so that it can often be taught as common truth? Now accepted in some form as “normal” but who decided collectively what normal was? Oh how did we (and continue to) lose our way? Please Father, Show me my own perverted ways that I may return to your truth and cling to it as you would desire me to. Whilst in a human frame of mind you may seem distant let me be faithful to you in your absence. But even that is a falsity for I know that you are far from absent from me but I am but a flawed human who finds it easy to see the tangible things around me more than the spiritual things profound. Let me be led by your spirit more than my prominent earthly senses. Remind me that there is more than meets the eye and that we wrestle not against flesh and blood but principalities and powers. The calamities we face may not be God ordained but they are allowed. Why?
Who am I to question you Father for I am not the one who uttered and as a result created the sun. I do however know that even in adversity you want us to seek you, that even in the midst of despair our hope would be found in you, whether challenges took the form of (mental or physical) disease, civil unrest, abuse, poverty, death or any manner of malaise. The winds of adversity blow and when all is stripped away you then oh Lord are our Hope our stay. Lord many might say to me but you have not suffered war and persecution what must I know. I am thankful that I don’t suffer in the same way that our brothers and sisters do across the world and I pray that even now you would shine your face ever so brightly over them, making ways of escape for even the least among them. My struggles may not be visible or the same but I believe we all have our own battles to fight!! Remind me Lord not to compare my life to others but to be more consumed with what you are saying to me about my road, about me. Show me what I can do to view others more highly than myself, to help my neighbor, to show your love truly everywhere I go!!
Help me stay focused on the fact that this world is not my home and therefore even these horrible things and all that exists now are temporal even the little glimmers of good. Our real home comes when you return for us and once and for all end all the horror of a fallen world. May I be used for your glory even among the ashes, even in the valley low or high on the mountain.
When I focus on this I can truly admit to live is a leaning of my entire human personality, an adherence to, a trusting in and relying on you Christ and to die is truly gain because it avails me more of you. Comfort me: Oh Comforter, Guide me: oh Shepherd, Teach me: oh ABBA and wholly Incline my heart to you, Open my eyes to the beauty of your word, Unite my heart to fear your name and Satisfy me anew. (IOUS Prayer Acronym)
I hold tightly to your promise in
Revelation 21: Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth; for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away (vanished), and there is no longer any[a]sea. 2 And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, arrayed like a bride adorned for her husband; 3 and then I heard a loud voice from the throne, saying, “See! The tabernacle of God is among men, and He will live among them, and they will be His people, and God Himself will be with them [b][as their God,] 4 and He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be death; there will no longer be sorrow and anguish, or crying, or pain; for the[c]former order of things has passed away.”