I am Milly.
I was once identified by all the wrong things.
I was once lost.
I have had a (young) lifetime of wrestling with my identity and the labels society placed on me based on what I presented. I am pleasant, I smile, but sometimes, depending on the scenario or the people I can be quiet. Don’t get me wrong I am not necessarily introverted: I love being around people. I write from a place of redemption from a place of not clinging to the definitions of this world but to what my creator has made me, as his daughter. When I understood who Jesus was and when I truly met him and he entered into my life is when things started to change. When I had been crucified with Christ it was then that I started to see who I really was. It was then that I could love who I had been created to be: An image bearer of Christ.
I was always labelled as quiet and for the majority of my life, I resented the sentence. I felt it was an excuse for people not to try that little bit harder, to break past the initial wall of quiet. BACK THEN I really was lost and I was not at peace with who I was. I used to identify with Emily the strange a figurative emo comic character.
My misplaced identity led me to a series of poor life choices till I descended into a dark pit of abuse, sarcasm and snide remarks, depression and poor esteem generally of others and most of all myself, it’s true what they say if you don’t know who you are people are going to tell you.This was me until I met Christ!
Now I want to share with others all of Christ’s love as I have known it and he continues to reveal to me in all of this life’s journey. I want to share about relationships, identity, work life, fitness, and more through the use of Bible study/devotionals, poems, blogs and more.
An identity reclaimed is understanding that while I may be meek my identity is in Christ.
In Christ I am not quiet, I am meek not in the sense that I am mild, have no personality or am not worth being around. I am meek in the sense that Christ was meek in response to God’s will. Meek in many ways is a submission. This is the stance I want to follow after my soul crying out “whatever it takes Lord” Let me be yours a woman wholly devoted and surrendered to your purposes.
“Meekness is, therefore, an active and deliberate acceptance of undesirable circumstances that are widely seen by the individual as only part of a larger picture. Meekness is not a resignation to fate, a passive and reluctant submission to events, for there is little virtue in such a response. Nevertheless, since the two responses resignation and meekness are externally often indistinguishable, it is easy to see how what was once perceived as a virtue has become a defect in contemporary society. The patient and hopeful endurance of undesirable circumstances identify the person as externally vulnerable and weak but inwardly resilient and strong. Meekness does not identify the weak but more precisely the strong who have been placed in a position of weakness where they persevere without giving up. The use of the Greek word when applied to animals makes this clear, for it means “tame” when applied to wild animals. In other words, such animals have not lost their strength but have learned to control the destructive instincts that prevent them from living in harmony with others.” (Bible Study Tools )
Be who God has created you to be, Let him show you who you really are.